Welcome to Holland by Emily Perl Kingsley. c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved.

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability- to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this...

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip- to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."

But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills... and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say, "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."

And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very, very significant loss.

But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things... about Holland.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

HORTON SAVES CHRISTMAS!

Mitch’s Christmas play was last night.  It is always a crowd pleaser!  They received a standing ovation and that was so amazing to see these sweet kids up there on the stage while everyone was clapping and cheering them on!  I know I say this all the time but, I love this school!  They really care about these kids.  They don’t see the disability, they see the ABILITY.  They get to cheer these kids on everyday and that is exactly what they do.  I was also incredibly grateful for the members of the student council at Springville High School.  They did an excellent job with the kids.  They sacrifice a lot during the whole preparation for the play and they did it with smiles on their faces and I love them for it!  Imagine a bunch of high school students doing all of this and being HAPPY to do it?!?  They give up their lunch hour to practice with the kids at Oakridge!  They got up on the stage and gave it their all.  I hope this has an impact on them because I know it has an impact on the kids at Oakridge and their families.  Thank you so much to the students who truly gave of themselves last night.
Mitch played the part of Vlad the Vulture, and I have to say, the part was completely perfect for him!  Vlad was a little ornery and Mitch put his best ornery face on while he pushed the switch button that said his part.  ha-ha!  Kind of like this face….
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We are so proud of our sweet little Mitch
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Linz and the girls are always there to support us!
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Haley too…  We appreciate it so much!
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Look at little Roo!  He was OUT half way thru the play!
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This is Mitch’s communication intervener, Jolyn.  She is amazing with Mitch and he loves her!
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We have such wonderful friends that are so supportive.  Haley used to be Mitch’s intervener and now she is a very good friend of the family.  She comes to all that she can and she is the only one I’ll leave Mitch with when we are in a pinch.  It is so wonderful to see how many people Mitch has touched. 
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And then Santa showed up….
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But I heard him exclaim, ere he drove
out of sight, “HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO ALL,
AND TO ALL A GOOD-NIGHT!”

Monday, December 13, 2010

Do you see what I hear, I hear?

I laughed so hard on the way home from taking Mitch to school that it was literally dangerous to be on the road!  We were listening to Christmas music when this song came on, “Do you hear what I hear?”  Maj’s version is, “Do you see what I hear, I hear?” and “Do you hear what I see, I see?” We heard a funny one last night too when we went to see the Christmas lights at Salem Pond.  “Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer” came on and Maj’s version is “Rudolph the Red Nosed Snowman”, he is constantly mixing things up like that!  Soooo funny!  All of my boys are so much fun to be with.  I love them!  Where would we be without a little laughter in our lives!  Probably in the nut house! 

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

No words

I really have no words to describe how I feel.  We were the recipient of an extremely generous, anonymous gift last night.  So generous, in fact, that we no longer have to worry one bit about Christmas for our boys.  We can just concentrate on what Christmas is really about and I am so grateful for that.  We truly felt the love of our Savior through the kind service of our dear neighbors.  I sat and bawled last night on the floor.  Will tried to come up with an excuse as to why his eyes were watering.  haha… You can’t fool me Willy!  He said, “You know when you are so tired that your eyes water?”  Uh huh Will, we know.  It takes a lot to make Will tear up.  We were just overwhelmed with love and gratitude.  I guess I just have two words… THANK YOU! 

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Mitch

I have had a lot of time at home lately.  On Friday, Mitch had a really bad seizure and ended up in the hospital.  He kept “pausing” when breathing so we knew he was in bad shape but it was still a shocker to see his co2’s in the 80’s.  His doctor looked at me and said, this is usually something that requires intubation.  “What?” I thought.  I haven’t heard that word since he was a baby in the NICU!  So they bagged him for a little while and he didn’t tolerate that very well, I can’t blame him.  We did a few other things as well and by the time we got another blood gas, his co2’s had dropped into the 60’s.  What a relief!  By the end of the day his blood gas was perfect!  He can flip in a matter of minutes.  It always amazes me just how fast he changes, one minute he can be a little sick and in the next minute we could be rushing him to the hospital wondering if this is it, and then right back to normal!?!  He is still very sick, it will take a while to recover from this one.  This sweet boy has endured so much in his little nine years.  He is amazing.  I feel incredibly blessed to be his mother and I will enjoy him for as long as we have him.  Everyday is a blessing and a miracle.  Love you baby.
Wouldn’t you know, my whole family is sick right now.  I know, big surprise.  We have the greatest neighbors and friends that have taken such good care of us through this.  So in the days that we have been home, (when I can muster up the strength, energy and time) I have been enjoying our family pictures and getting Christmas cards done and all that fun stuff.  Times a runnin out!  I have really loved seeing these of sweet Mitch…
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Monday, November 15, 2010

San Diego, Nov 2010

We met my parents there for a few days and had the best time.  Its been a while since we've seen them and I forget how much fun they are!  I was rolling on the ground with laughter most of the time and the other time was probably spent at Bates Nut Farm.  We just can't get enough of that place.  Will and Dad, on the other hand, had a heaping list of "honey do's" for my mom.  She bought some things for the house and had them busy, busy, busy!  They also helped out at the golf tournament for Hal and he didn't say it, but I think Will was wishing he had taken his golf clubs and golfed in the tourny instead.  Maybe next year:)  Fun was had by all!  We love it there.  Time was flying by and before we knew it we were headed our seperate ways, mom and dad went back to the vineyard and we were headed back to... snow:(


The boys couldn't get enough of hiking the trails around the house.  Grandpa might be sorry he showed them cause he sure got his exercise keeping up with Mad and Maj!  Can you spot 'em?
Here they come...

The boys feeding the ducks at Bates...

Maj fell asleep while Grandma was reading "Skippy Jon Jones", their fav book:)


Big Boy School Bus

LOOK HOW BIG THAT BUS IS THAT MY LITTLE 3 YEAR OLD IS ABOUT TO GET ON!
Off he goes...  Have a great day at school Major!


Thursday, November 11, 2010

DID YOU SEE IT????

Turn to page 113 of this month's Ensign....
http://lds.org/churchmagazines/EN_2010_11_00___09211_000_000.pdf

Monday, November 1, 2010

Halloween Happenings 2010

This is my favorite holiday!  I love all the spookyness of this month when the leaves start changing and falling, scary movies galore on the tele, and all the fun activities!  So fun!  My boys love it too and Will is a good sport, although I tried to get him to dress up as a marshmellow but no dice.  Oh well, maybe next year.  The only bad thing about this year was the weather.  It rained and hailed so bad right at trick or treat time so it was really cold and wet.  It was still so much fun.  Loved it!


CRAZY HAIR DAY AT SCHOOL... he is such a good sport for his crazy mom! lol

PUPMKINLAND
My dear neighbor invited my sister and I to go with her to a playgroup activity at Pumkinland.  It was the cutest place for the little kids to have some Halloween fun! 
Maj goin thru the corn maze
Maj and his buddy, Gannon


COSTUMES AND SCHOOL PARTIES
Here's Mads getting ready to head to school in his costume...
And here's Mitchy boy headed to school in his BUG costume... He is my LOVEBUG:)
Guess who finally started school..... It's CAPTAIN ROO!
Here is my baby Major at school.  I was sad to leave him there but it didn't really hit me until I had dropped Mitch off at school and I didn't have my little Maj in the back talking to me the whole way home.  I bawled all the way back to the house.


TRICK OR TREAT???
my grapes were very sparse by the time I got home... stinkin wind:(  Oh well, it was fun and the boys LOVED it! lol


Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Have you seen?????

This made the front page news!  Click on (share) to see a familiar face!

Collin Raye - She's With Me

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Fam Pics

Well, it's that time of year again!  Yay!  I love picture time.  It is so fun to go out with Chrissy and take fun pictures of our family.  She is so very talented.  I am amazed by her... she is better everytime we do this. (I didn't think that was possible!)  I also promised some pictures of my dark hair so... here they are!  (Just a few)  She is not even done editing but these are a few of my favs so far...


I love that I got Will to wear a cardigan... that is probably what we are laughing about!  LOL
MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE....


Monday, September 6, 2010

It's dark!

So for months now I have been thinking about going dark A LOT!  I was very reluctant because I have been blonde for 5 years ( I think... maybe longer) and for 3 of those years its been platinum!  I needed a change.  That is the longest I've ever been the same color.  I like change.  I liked my white hair a lot but I was getting sick of the maintenance of being platinum and also my hair was beginning to feel like straw.  Not good.  I am naturally very dark so it was unbelievable that I was platinum for that long.  I still had reservations because I hadn't been dark for so long!  But now I am!  I don't know if I like it yet.  I feel like a stranger when I look in the mirror.  I get the weirdest looks from people... no one in my neighborhood has ever seen me dark so I mean people actually stop in the middle of the road to take a second look then the window comes down and I hear, Oh I didn't recognize you!  Ya, tell me about it.  I completely startled someone at church yesterday.  I completely startle myself when I pass a mirror.  So... as soon as I get comfortable with myself again... I will post some pics!  I hope I get used to this... there is no turning back! ( at least not for a few months:) )

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Where's Attic?

LOL!  Major can't say Maddock yet and what ends up coming out is Attic.  Every hour I hear "Where's Attic mom?"  So funny :)  He misses his big bro. 

It's QUIET!

Today was Mitch's first day of school.  I hope I didn't send him too soon.  I actually felt guilty for keeping him home any longer because he loves school so much.  I think he was happy to be there, everyone at his school was happy to have him back.  They love Mitch and he loves them.  It is such a special place.  I have missed going there every day, I walk out of there with a huge smile on my face every morning.  I just can't help it.  Those people are amazing and the kids are so fun to watch.  One of the girls came in off the bus throwing the biggest fit you've ever seen and I joked that I wished Mitch would act like that because at least then I would know he likes it at home more than school :)  Haha!  Thats ok, I love that Mitch loves school!  It makes me happy :)  It sure is quiet around here though.  Just little Roo and I left.


Here is Mitch out in front of his school
Mitch with his principle, Dr. Kay.  This man is the reason I switched Mitch to this school.  He is absolutely amazing!  He loves these kids with all his heart and fights for them to have anything they need.
This is Mitch's Communication Intervener, Jolyn.  She is awesome with Mitch and he loves her.
Even though I was grubby this morning, I had to have a picture with my big school boy.  Have a great day baby!  I love you and I will miss you so much!